The time is 8:38pm on a Monday evening. I am sitting in my office, meant to be inputting info into various documents, fairing them and sending them out to the relevant parties. I should be doing that, but of course here I am on blogspot. For dinner I had a Maggi cup noodle and 2 eggs courtesy of my boss who forgot she boiled them this morning.
Doing this now makes me think if this is truly what I want to be doing, if this is the life I am meant to be living. Short term answer- yes. (the work part not the cup noodle part). Is this where I saw myself 15 years ago? Probably not, no. But it's also because I had a poor idea of what I wanted to be as an "adult" and I didn't decide on doing law till I was 18. Also, I say 15 years ago because 10 is a stretch. I'm 30 this year and at 20 I definitely saw myself heading down this road already LMAO!
Looking back, I don't think I would've foresaw myself being a "legal professional" doing the jobs I currently am doing. But I suppose that is the whole point of growing up. We grow out of certain phases in life and into new ones, grow out of comfort zones, do new things, take on responsiblities, achieve the impossible*.
Note: what is impossible isn't always impossible. What is impossible may just be a limitation in one's imagination
It's difficult for me to swallow the fact that I am now 30 and I last started my blog more than half a lifetime ago. It's probably been more than half a lifetime since I've deleted that blog too. Being 30 makes you think too much of the unnecessary. Is this a mere reflection, or a manifestation of my refusal to step into this new phase of life just yet? The 2 are not mutually exclusive. Anyway, I am just as frivolous with my time as I was before, so it seems.
Am I currently "middle aged"?? Is this what this chapter in life is meant to be?
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